Progress (I’ve kind of ruined it)
Controlling nature is definitely hard work. It didn’t turnout the way I want it to but I guess I’ll just have to wait for the real end result in two weeks
I won’t be posting anything for the next 6 days because of my exams.
Today’s Brave Act: A metric to measure the result of my 30 days goal is how early I’d be waking every morning to start the day and how early I am going to class (since I am always late)
I have 24 days left in my 30-day goal to use my time wisely.
Which means within two weeks, I need to adapt to the changes I’ve made regarding to my daily schedule.
Which means in a week, I need to make a daily schedule for my daily routine.
Which means in the next three days, I need to list down things to do everyday.
To hit that 3-day goal, today I need to stop procastinating and get on with everything that need to be done.
Yesterday’s achievement: I’ve been studying a lot and doing nothing else, like always since my exam is tomorrow.
Today’s Brave Act: As I try to listen to my thought, I could list down hundreds of not enough thoughts about myself. Not smart enough, not pretty enough, not wise enough, not good enough for my family, not special enough to use my creativity as a strength to live fully, I am not worthy of the dreams I’m chasing,… But now I’m letting all of it go. I AM ENOUGH. I’m literally turning rubbish into rainbow, which is impossible. I’ll just wing it.
I define the feeling “enough” by being grateful. It’s not having what you want, It’s wanting what you’ve got.
Why do my voices of ‘not enough’ exist? What are they trying to tell me? I think it’s a warning to when I’m too comfortable with myself, with my achievement, it is like a slap in the face to wake me up from my hallucination. Most of it tells me to do better, be better, reflect on myself. On the other hand, some degrade me and are one hell of a sucker punch to be fight back which made me change the course of my life. I am still not sure if it is a good change or a bad one.
Yesterday’s achievement: I think I’m getting a hang of this challenge now. I wake up early, study, do various things a day, realise that I have more time at hand than I know what to do with it.
I’m really failing in this challenge, goodbye to my 200 saving money. Since I’ve missed one day before this because of the miss place of email, now I lost track of what day it should be. And here I put my goal as to manage time better when I don’t even know my days. Pfftt
Today’s Brave Act: one minute meditation. Not sure if it works for me(maybe I’m not doing it right)
Yesterday’s achievement: I had an early start yesterday. Studied for straight 7 hours at the library. I use a technique called pomodoro technique which everybody kept bugging me to give it a try. Apparently, I find the technique annoying and it wasn’t working for me. But then again I had a blocked yesterday. I couldn’t study anything. Nothing make sense when I do questions. It’s like I’m a little child learning to read for the first time. I know each word but couldn’t make sense as the words combine into sentences. So, I can’t really blame the pomodoro technique, I think it’s because of the exam that is coming in just 2 days. But the technique did keep me fresh for the whole 7 hours non stop of studying. Although, I did stop studying after that because nothing was sticking in my head. I really hope my brain will be working by the time my exam starts. BRAIN I COMMAND YOU TO STOP PANICKING, NOW’S SO NOT THE TIME. Thus, I’ve decided to give the technique a try again today.
I forgot to post for day 3 yesterday 😅
Today’s Brave Act: Ask a friend what they see as your greatest strength and greatest weakness(I ask two people for opinion)
Strength : highly observant and analytical
Weakness : complain too much, pessimistic, difficulty to accept new things
Strength – natural perseverance towards life. Eventhough some times things get hard, I didn’t let the negativity overwhelm me. And in the rare chance that it did, I bounce back and will also squeeze those lemons into very beautiful advices that I just need to listen to more.
Weakness – I try to fit everything all at once on my plate. Next, I take on a lot of things at once and then the second something new comes, I’d take the new one.
Journal Prompt: from my view
Strength: my creativity. I think that’s the only thing that keep me going every day. All the ideas i get, the thoughts that came through and the sudden understanding of something because of my imagination is what makes this life worth living for.
Weakness: Dishonesty to myself. I am a type of person who had to learn from my own mistake to really master what whatever the obstacle I go through, thus, failure is an everyday thing for me. Though I will always get back up after the fall, most of the time I found myself cheating to my own self! Example, when I do a practice on a subject, and got the question wrong but after seeing the answer i would say “oh, I know this already. Just careless mistake.” When clearly I got it wrong because there was something I don’t know.
Yesterday’s achievement: I only manage to study a little bit but it was still worth it. All the formulas are in my head now although it took me longer than I expected.
I was waiting for the email yesterday but didnt get any. Turns out it was in a folder of “important” in my gmail. I wonder how it get there since I would have to be the one to mark it as important which I did not. So now it is suppose to be day 3 but I am writing for day 2. This is SAD.
Note: always check my email in other folders too
Today’s brave act: –
It is important to stay committed to my goal because I know at the end of it I will be a better person. This first step is the key to every other goal I would want to achieve in the future.
Yesterday’s achievement: I helped my sister with her bacteria culture experiment. although I did not study at all for my exams, I contribute my time doing activities with my family because it was the last day of my father’s holiday(he is working in another country) before he went back to work yesterday.